Sometimes

Most of the time I check on her to make sure she's still breathing.
But sometimes I check on her... to make sure she's really real :)

Big Trouble

Lord help me, I am possibly creating my own monster. But damn it, my child is perfect, and looks her absolute most perfect when she's sleeping on me!
I have to break myself or I'll have a 12 year old perfectly asleep on my chest :)

Wow, it's an amazing thing how the birth of a child will pass time so quickly. They say a newborn sleeps 18 or more hours a day, what they don't say is that it is very sporadic and when these beautiful creatures are awake the extremely time consuming. I do not mean that in a bad way at all, becoming a mom has been everything and more than I had hoped for.
This post is being typed one handed because my little angel sleeps in my other. She will sleep in her crib for me but that would require me to stop snuggling. I hear the warnings now, "be carefull, you'll spoil her & then you'll have to break that habbit." One, she's too young to spoil. Two, damn right she'll be spoiled, every being in my house is spoiled beyond belief and I prefer it that way. No one in my house is spoiled to the brat extreme, and I plan to continue this tradition with her :)
Gramma was here for a month & left this morning, as hard as that was it's time to figure out our new normal. I am still extremely thankful that my mom was able to disrupt her life 1200 miles away to be with me, there is no way I would have been able to do this without help.
I have made the decision to both breast and formula feed my daughter, I am unable to keep up with her production needs alone. It took days of both feeding and pumping hourly to make that hard decision, no one wants to admit on any level they cannot provide something for their child, but in the end supplementing with formula gets my baby as much as she needs and allows me more time to concentrate on all other aspects of caring for her.
Last, there will be no more pictures of Stacia here there are too many sick people who steal innocent pictures and photo shop them. If you would like a picture just e mail me & I'd be happy to send it to you :)

Stacia Rochelle

So much to cover that some stuff I am sure will unfortunately get left out. Yes I finally delivered the most beautiful baby girl ever, she's such a good baby I can't believe it. I am very very lucky. She looks just like her daddy and yet she's still gorgous :). She sleeps for about 3-4 at a time and only cries when she has a dirty diaper or is hungry.
I can't believe I waited so long to become a parent this is by far the best thing I have ever done with my life. That being said it is also by far the hardest, and I know I have it easy with her, yet nothing has already made me feel like the bigest champion and failure at the same time.
C-Section births leave much to be desired, the birth process itself is very speedy if yours is pre planned as mine was, the recovery takes much much too long. I hate not being able to fend for myself and my child alone, I am really bad at asking for help on a personal level.
Breatsfeeding has been hatefull, she will rarely latch to me so I have to pump milk into a bottle. I can handle pumping into a bottle what is infuriating/incerdibly dissapointing is that I can pump for 30 minutes and accumulate 1 ounce between both sides. I am on some suppliments to help my milk come in I think they are working just ever so slowly.
Stacia is perfect and mommy is on the mend so we are all doing very well and happy to finally be together.